what HE gives...HE takes back....

i'm currently doing my elective posting in SCN/ NICU- for those who is not used to these terms it basically means a place / ward for newborns or premies with complications during or after birth.....so it had been 4 months working my ass off here in this new unit.. everything seemed different..tiny and small...getting used to it all took sometime...now i've been doing calls for 2 months...tiring all in all...*how i miss having HO around!!*.......

a few days ago, during my ON-call day.....there was this baby who was about a week old with some growth in his brain, after being investigated it turned out to be a nasty type of growth which usually has a poor outcome.....the anxious parents were told of this and of the poorly expected outcome - no matter what we resort to....being a mum myself..i could only imagine how shattered the parents must have felt on learning this fact......awaiting for their final decision on some operation which may help the suffering baby and stall the course of the disease ...the mum finally consented...

while I was doing my rounds that night, the teary-eyed mum approached me asking permission to bring in his eldest (5 yr old) in to see his lil baby brother that he had waited for all this time.....without any expressions or words..silently i thought...*Hmmm...lepas operation pun bley tengok...*...but her next sentenced struck me dumb......" saya nak sangat bawak abang dia masuk tengok adik sebelum bedah sebab nanti lepas bedah takut kepala dah berlubang ke, tempurung tak ade..kesian abg die tgk adik die rupe macam tu pulak......kan doktor..??

- Ya Allah....I ...i mean we ..doctors had been so used to seeing patients with deformities and in bad conditions or recovering from operations or diseases with permanent defects..that we tend to forget that these sights are new and not normal to lay-man ( or people out there).....* yelah...i slowly terfikir...." what and how would a 5 year old boy react seeing his lil 1 week old brother with no skull / worst a whole in the head???*

after discussing with a senior colleague n the in- charge ward sister...we allowed the lil boy in - in discretion for just a few minutes.....seeing him watch his lil newborn brother for the first time brought tears streaming down my cheeks...." Ma...comelnye adik Ma...Bile adik nak balik ngan kite ye Ma.???cepat lah adik balik....."....when he looked at me as if awaiting for an answer as to when can his lil brother come home..my answer was " abang doa banyak2 kat Allah...bagi adik baik...okey..." >near-choking on each words...trying to hold back tears......the mother was speechless....I saw only tears streaming down her face and wetting her towel in hand.....

The next morning, as early as 6 am as i was up taking bloods.....and up-dating patient's progress, I saw the mum cradling her baby close and talking to the baby with teary eyes.....the lil baby went for operation that afternoon but...as Allah loved him so......and it was fated to be...he succumbed

I hope the dear family who have endured this recent loss take this as a dugaan from HIM....and I pray they be blessed with another healthy son in near future....

As for me.....though this NICU posting is really hectic n tiring...it has thought me priceless lessons on how lucky I am n how grateful I should be ....for eventhough my pregnancies were always complicated...it ends with easy deliveries n my babies are healthy......I can only imagine the sadness n anxiety parents feel for their lil babies who are warded here.....waiting day by day for the time they can cradle the babies at home peacefully.....What I can offer now..is help..help...and more help ....as much as possible to make this "going home to mama n papa " possible n as soon as it can be....

~Alhamdulillah Allah for blessing me wif healthy ariff n aufa.......

MamaSue's Graduation....n mOre....

Convocation usually reminds me of bouquet of colourful flowers, robes and mortar boards, gleeful faces n large cheerful crowds.........it had been so for ages now....but 2007 brought a me a new picture to reminisce CONVOCATIONS... Sadly for Janie or fondly known as MamaSue...her convocation ceremony took place when Mak,abah n PapaLee R still abroad......sO Iya n Me went on Be1/2 of Mak n abah to the scroll-giving event....All clad in kurungs( cam baiks jer!!!) the theme 4 d day was black saree.....
Sampai2 on-time,luckily dapat VIP sticker(courtesy of Enez) we had walking distance car-park....Seeing crowds of multi-coloured people n smells....Iya blurted out .." hopefully xdelah indian gals pakai saree cam kite nie, kalau ade, we should walk near them,biar org ingat we come 2gether-gether....hehehhe( brilliant idea???)...
Preparing 4 the bored-to-death dewan session we came handy with MP3 .... tp dlm dewan baru discover yg earplugs tue x fit!!! (chehheheh!!!!)....nasib baik I brought my MCQs along,bley gak buat ubat tido......Pity Ya...asyik terlentok2....Makcik next 2 me was busy munching sireh complete with kapur,gambir,pinang n all....n then she burped...PerGhhHHHH!!! the smell was unbearable......
Bangga je tgk MamaSue amik scroll, clad in her new black n blue baju, all dolled up in blue eye shadow, cute giler.....if only she was d last one doing the cute-blow kisses instead of Enez hehheheh....dah grad dah si kechik sorang nie,....bought her a bouquet in orange n white she was all smiles.....ariff,aufa,am n kak uswah came 4 picture-taking... pun ader.pokjang n aunty misah Megat n family joined too....had kentucky-outing after that....
Nak balik time....keta PapaLee battery kong plaks!!!!lampu ter-On tadi...Laaa!!!luckily POkJang was around,puas 'jump'kan tp x idup2 try wif battery waja baru bley.....by then dah penat giler!! aufa dah tertido2...ariff pun dah penat giler...nearly 10.30pm bru we were able to make a move back home.....
on d way back later ariff solemnly said"Ummie, tak mo ahh naik keta PapaLee nie lagi...simpan yek keta nie..suruh PapaLee belikan keta ubat okay......penat kan Ummie...?? Ariff pun penat sangat!!!"..yup!! I couldn't agree more.....balik tue,all X-hausted, tonggang air sejuk se'jug' abis.....
from now onwards,Convocation will remind me not only of flowers etc but more of being stranded with keta yg batterynya 'kong' ......Hahahahahh......
what a day!!!!!
pepe pun...I was glad to B there n share MamaSue's big day...Iknow Mak ,abah n PapaLee would want to be there too if they could.....anyway....congrats MamaSue!!!.....do well in ur Bachelor kay..nanti next Convo kite toksah naik Sazzy kay..hehhehehe...

Too-Eee.....best!!!

i used 2 frequent cinemas in my sOlO days in both KL n Ipoh...but since settling down I can too easily count d times i went for movies ( satu tangan pun cukup.... )..reason being 'xde mase,cian nak tinggalkan ariff n adding to it the fact that abg is not pro-cinema....the few times yg i managed to gi cinema-outing tu alone or ngan adiks2ku.....gi sorang boring jugak....
so when the movie Rattatoille(x sure ah spellingnye...) was premiering,....teringin nak tgk.....ariff pun 2x5,each time ade ad kat tv 'bout d movie..sebuks dia lompat2 shouting out "Ummie!ummie,,, jom kite tgk Tou-Eee jom....( that's how he calls the movie..) tiap kali ad macam tu le gayanye...without fail..
Our luck kot..abg agreed to go cinema-ing...so left lil' aufa wif kak uswah n went...d 3 of us ( Me-abg-ariFF),g dekat mines je...9pm show...nak g jejauh esoknye keje....had a quick dinner n then tunggu nak msk cinemA...time tue ariff's excitement was apparent...he was shouting " too-ee...too-ee.."at each n every poster of d movie....n was even 'posing2' at the posters....though quite a number of other kids his age n older were there 4 d movie....being his first cinema-experience I'm prepared 4 the worst n unexpecteds......within what brief time b4 we entered d cinema...I wAS prepping my ariff with the Do's n Don'ts in d cinema....n even warned him of the 'gelapness' once movie starts n all....munching eagerly on his caramel pop-corn,his only reply to my 'cinema-guides-for-beginners'were " Errr..Okay kan Ummie..best Too-Eee nie.."..with both eyes n fingers glued to the pop corn box...shuffling in2 d cinema soon after...Ariff was all prepared 4 whatever comes, clad in his spidey-jacket , he was still busy munching d pop-corns n sipping Sarsi from 'Too-Eee' Water container...till the 1st sounds of ad came to life on d screen ahead...all Wide-eyed and struck numb in his seat, Ariff was awed with what passes on the big screen....("prak jgk anak aku nie.,.)...hulur pop corn pun x nak...tambah plak reply baik punye.."Ummie!!!takMO aaahh..ariff nak tgk Too-Ee nie..., tak mo pop corn..kenyang tahu!!!" he stayed that way all wide-eyed thruout d movie n on n off giving commentaries like.."die masak kek lah ummie...,sedapnye maggi tu..., Ooo,,dia ramainye,,,comey sangat kan Ummie..n lots others.."
4yg tak tau....movie nie pasal a rat yg very clean n loves cooking n is very good at it....
He watched 3/4 of the movie then dah ngantuk...yelah 11pm...so all in all it was a very successful movie outing...even abg Njoyed it.....d best is abg's closing remark.. " sronok tgk ariff tadi..pandai die x nangis,n he Njoyed it...kalau ade cite best bley arghh bawak lagi"...-yaHoo!!!!4 ariff n Ummie both!!!hehheheh

uwAaaa!!!!!cepat ahh balik!!!!!!

it's been 2 weeks ..(emm..16 days actually...hehhe..look who's counting..) since Mak,Abah n PapaLee left for Wallanggong...visiting MamaNa....everything in Tee-Jay seems quiet nowadays..no more shrieking n distinctive voices of Mak...or witty jokes n blunt remarks from abah....n ariff n lil' aufa is relatively SAFE from PapaLee's Xtreme show of affection..which includes..nose-licking, cheek-biting n etc....All in all....everything is calmer but unpleasantly LONELIER....
I miss my mOmmy!!!!...abah!!! ( "cry baby..) n even Lee ( yikes!!!x betul ke ape??)...n I can even tell aufa n ariff misses them all too..m'be lil Aufa misses his atuk n nenek more since nowadays only Kak Uswah awaits him day in-day-out at Nenek's place..sure dia heran..."mane pi org tua berdua yg suke gomol2 aku tue???rendu pulaks x digomol2 nie...".....eVen kak Uswah seems lonely..pity her coz, i'm busy at work..what with being in NICU and all..going back late seems to be a routine nowadays...so cian Kak uswah ber2 je ngan aufa..usually...rumah tue lively with nenek's n kak uswah's chatters.....gaduh2 n all...nie...senyap sunyi....kak uswah lost weight I think...she hardly eats...even if I buy food , she'll say she's full or takde selera n all..puas kena pakse by me n abang baru dia makan...kitorang pesan "kena makan, nanti sakit....masuk jarum!!!"......I know how fond she is of Mamito.....n yes...she misses Mak a lot...I can tell....whenever mak calls from Aussie, she'll glow like fireflies...x makan seharian pun xpe I guess....
Seeing lil Aufa growing bigger, plummer n cleverer each day...I'm SaD inside...."wish Mak n abah can b here to see him now...dah bley merangkak tu!!!!pantang lepa sket...sampai KL dah....he can even pull up to standing position on his own n meniti tepi kusyen or sofa....that's actually very2 advanced for his 6 months age......iJah tau....if I can feel Sayu..seeing it..Mak n abah sure rendus giler ngan aufa n ariff....
aS 4 MamaSu...i'll attend her konvo wif iYa...gantikan Mak n abah...cian jugak si kechik sorang tue...xpe..ijah dah promise to treat them to bukit expo the nite before konvo...bley ajak OM skali kan??MamaNa???bley eh???Ya n kak uswah n all pun ade....
anyway...we know u're all there 2 b with MamaNa....Njoy yerself n cecePat balik ehh....
We Miss U aLL........

new spiderboy on the block...

specially for MamaNa....the lOooonG awaited spiderboy is here....all urs to see....but sorry pic kreng quality..blame it on the camera n hp...wat hal plaks mase tue.....

long silence....

HisHhhyyy...lamenye tak tulis blog nih..dah tak reti nak start kat mane....too much to write but too lil time...nih pun managed to write since arie nie terpaksa EL....hehehe...( bertanduk kejaps...) reason being my 2 precious demam.....

lately nih..kerap nor tak sihat..usually ariff yg mula ( yelah dah gi school nie,..byk lah virus2nye)...n being ariff..susah tul nak makan ubat n can't stop kissing aufa...so due2 ler demam....

cian tul tgk lil aufa dgn flunye...batuknye...n fever..nak tido pun tak comfortable...smalam on call ler ummienye dok tepid spongekan budak kecik tuh...

nih cool sket coz post aufa kat kak uswah after b'fast tadi...so ngerjakan abg ariff sorang, dah tido pun dek kena efek ubat.....enuff bout demam...kang sume demam..next post sat lagi story lain..

ariff's BIG day...

ariff turned 3 today...Hmmm cam tak caye je my eldest ni dah besar..hehehhe.....waking up to wishes n out of tune birthday songs from abah n ummie....aufa pun join skali....playing n leisured around at home mostly since aufa x sihat..down wif flu.. ....petang ready2 for d big birthday dinner.....

Venue : chicken rice alamanda ( since abah can't gobble up all the frieds n oily foods nowadays...)
Attendance : ALL except PapaLee ( penang-trip) N MamaNa ( wish U're around)
Food : a lOt + birthday cake- ariff chose this himself before going to alamanda.." slawbelly"

It went around great....only MamaNa's presence could tOp it up even greater....ariff enjoyed it a lot...beaming from ear 2 ear...even spent GrandPa time wif abah....( sure abah tak tido lena..terharu dek ariff's warmness tonight.....yelah...suapkan ariff..jalan2 hand-in-hand wif ariff,..even nak balik pun ariff tak mau ngan ummie nak ikut atuk!!!)...

Back at home after all the chaos...ariff slept soundly..smiling ..clutching his spidey 3-piece-suit-> courtesy of MamaNa ( thanx Na)...looking at him sleeping contentedly + soundly ..."Wow!!He's BIG in all things now.."(except size..)...learning all the good values n sket2 avoiding d bad ones....taking responsibility as a bigger bro 2 aufa n warming towards ppl around him....talking more n more..sometimes non-stop.....n just being adorable ariff hakimi ...lots more..that I can't list all of them here...all in all..he's grown up now...n i'm proud to see him grow...inch by inch..everyday...

Hopefully MamaNa'll be around for ariff's next birthday.....( Na..akak dah makankan kek 4 u..hehehehhe)....ariff says TQ n sends wet MuahSsss!!!He misses U..I can tell.....

wEEkend iS hErE!!!....

Since dah koje nie…jarang2 dpt mandikan my 2 boys nie…so weekend nie..lepaskan geram n wendu to bathkan dema…

Starting wif ariff.... Gosok gigi....

Mandi....n shampoo....
Tak main barney ni tak sah!!!
“Ummiee!!!ayiep pedih mate!!!tolon!!!” is a common cry.......* mostly lakonan je..*

gosok gg lagi...makan colgate je yg banyak sbenonye....….

Then aufa plaks….dalam tub …class gitu!!!

Ala2 spa….

d sMall things I miss now...

Sitting at work Xpressing ….. * what else needs Xpressing now..DUH!!!* …I miss my lil’ ahmad aufa zahidi…I miss everything about him..wondering whether he’s behaving well or being notty * sket2 takpe…*…I really miss ALL things AuFa…his smell…his laughter..tears n cries…his thumb-fist sucking..his giggles n crackles…his big solemn eyes…his cute pouty mouth…his small nose…his chubby cheeks..his double-triple chin….his kfc- hands n thighs….his stubby hairs *or whatever is there on top..*….n even his muntahs n poo…*ye ke..??? *…
Being a mommy..it feels empty not having ur lil’ ones wif u…u don mind dressing sloppily or even dressing nicely to be slopped all over wif vomits as long as they r there wif u..in ur arms….

I can’t even describe d feeling..only being one ( I mean a Mum) can U understand…
wif THAT in thoughts…I continued wif my works…counting hours n minutes till I can be back home again….wif my 2 precious GEMS…

Back 2 wOrk

I was all mixed feelings..coming back to work after a lOooong break ….but it all turned out great wif lots of warm welcome backs n yup….I missed work n cutting ppl…though ramai new faces n I need time 2 get used to thgs again…its all well…got some new n lovely surprises too…only really miss my lil’ aufa at home…..n abg ayip’s antics….but..ummie needs to work..n work…n work…n work…n work…* hehehe…psycho..*

aufa's new craze....

lil aufa ade new craze.......dia turun prangai MamaNa die nie..Isap jari..sometiems not only jari..d whole fist can go in!!!bukan saje satu kekadg tu..both fists!!!....Isyk!!isyKk!! byk2 prangai...await laa ikut hak tue????...what to do??tue yg syok kot.....

to curb it sket...Ummie got him something to chew on...."lil fisH"....tak busuk nye......he likes it but sometimes d fingers n fists r still d best!!! sebab masin n masam kot..??? MamaNa knows d answer 4 this..I bet!!!!

sangkar....

won 4 tickets last saturday for a movie premiere esp. meant 4 mum's day.....tp since mak n abah tied up wif a wedding in melaka..went wif PapaLee, MamaYa n PapaYa ( Ahhh...hahhahahah...) instead......
MamaSu???Mmm..she has plans...( waa...dah besar bdk sowang nih..siap ade plan2 lagi!!)

( 2 spoiled brats melantak...)


movie was a nice one....centering on a mum's love 4 her blind son n her struggles wif her father who abandoned ( ?? ) her...nasib x banjir cineleisure tue ( hehhe my 1st time here..prak tak???)...tp rasenye klu mak was there..sure bah nye..( sowwy mak..but it's d truth!!!kan..kan Ya..???) d enclosed f.o.c. popcorn n drinks each was superb as well...( gemuks aahhh....!!!)



pas show..had 'mamam' time kat little penang...

( me n chopsticks...)


( exercise muke slepas makan..tuk elakkan tembam..ekekek)

Mmmmmm...Nice!!!!!!!

my new baby...

nearly a wekk has passed but it slipped my mind totally...

i've a new baby now..baru 2 months old...

cute giler..hahha..aufa dah dapat 'adik' ler......tp special sket coz Ummie just feed her je...( yes...it's a she!!!) but no ribbons n frills...x sesuai gitu!!!...

kenalkan...B-bit....

comel kan..??she just loves cabbages..not so into carrots ...x tau nape...? m'be keras sgt n she's still too young...i dunno....

Me pegang B-bit??not yet...only feeding je..others abah yg handle..( smart ehh??)...takpe ahh B-bit kan..later on ummie pandai ahh bab touchy-feely nie...anyway..we both enjoy our 'makan'time together...I know I do!!!

mum...mum...mum...MAK!!!

2day's mother's day....


Mak...happy mother's day....thanx 4 bearing wif me all these years....I pray 4 yer health 4 years to come....

( Hehehe..abah put nyebuks skali ehhh...)

M -is for the million things she gave me,

O - means only that she's growing old

T - is for the tears she shed to save me,

H - is for her heart of pure gold;

E - is for her eyes, with love-light shining

R - means right, and right she'll always be,

Put them all together,

they spell,MOTHER..

A word that means the world to me

d big T-0.......

today...some 30 years back i was brought into this world....thanx to Mak 4 pushing me out of her cosy womb...n thanx 2 abah 4 helping in putting me into Mak in d 1st place..* hehhe go figure*...but utmost...all in all its God's will making it ALL possible....Alhamdulillah i'm still here n much lively n in good health....with so much to b thankful for n blessed with tonnes others....

abg was d 1st to wish me n along wif it a beautiful gift....right after maghrib prayers yesterday..d b'day wish came...."eeehhh...esok aah..." I bluntly said...he smiled ..."calendar islam, tomorrow starts after maghrib ler .."..hehe silly me....d gift came beautifully wrapped n attached with a greeting card...
opening it, pics of my 2 gems stared cutely back...* hmmm..creative jgk abg nie...ntah bebiler ntah dia wat sume nie.." ....d words brought tears to my eyes....As 4 d gift....as if knowingly *baru plan nak ushar2 new printed clutch*...it came to me all wrapped up....nice...limited edition lagi ..hehehe...best giler!!..thanx abg..4 taking all d trouble n 4 remembering...loved d gifts so much......but stilll d best gift ever from abg r my 2 precious gems...ariff n aufa...ummie rase nothing can top those two.....ever...hehehe...unless...an arifah...that'll will b nice...*ahaks!!!*...(tunggu wei...nanti2 ler tue)...hehehe...

Mak's early morning birthday sms brought tears to my eyes...tue yg balas pun pakai sms...klu call sure sebak n banjir plak pepagi birthday nie..*ahakss!!!*...then my adiks including yg faraway ngan kangaroo pun follow suit with wishes...n lots more ...cik syam..my frens......thank you all 4 remembering ..its so sweet...

blessed wif health, a cosy home, loving family, fulfilling job...i'm truly lucky..could not ask 4 more...tp yg x brape best tue its d 3o...no more twenties...hehh..horror je...dah tue...cam x caye je......rase2 smalam mcm baru 17..*wink*...

its always been my habit...resolution comes wif every birthdays...as 4 this 3o's resolutions.....mostly r personal ...but among others r try to b a good ummie to my 2 sons...more patient wif all their antics esp ariff's....a good, loving wife...and caring daughter n sister to my PaMa n adikS....wish i'll b more mature but not Aged..hehehe.....

thinking back...i recall d best b'day suprise ever was my 19th birtday( if x silap)...d one yg i had to frantically kemas d whole house 4 a said "kenduri"..sedangkan it was actually 4 my own besday suprise party...*cian x??*...all thanx to MamaNa...she's always great when it comes to organizing events.... Na,...akak was very touched with that one..n yup!!memang Wakena Beb!!...U truly made my day then!!!...wif all d guests n cake besaq...Ina xde nie...xde aah kek 4 me..*sob..sob...(wat drama swasta plaks)..*...one day i'll throw u one such suprise kay...*ntah biler tuh??*.......susah pe....*party nasi minyak aci tak???ekekeeekk...*

Being 30 n notty....i wish myself a happy n successful life ahead with all dreams come true....* smiling in prayer*

waaa...kebun binatang..!!!

kidnapped kak uswah for a trip to d Zoo a.k.a. 'kebun binatang' (in Indonesian dialek).....ariff n aufa pun angkut skali....siap prepare sandwiches for ala2 picnic gitu...hehehe....

ariff had been here once mase he was 1 yr + n he really Njoyed it......similarly this time...he was as Xcited as b4 if not more....lil' Aufa slept in his carrier while ariff frantically rambled out one after another d animals he saw...."eeeee...tgk zirafah tue..ee gajah ahh...burung....kure2....n lots more.."

kak uswah was as excited as ariff ..... having had toured nearly 1/2 d zoo we stopped 4 lunch n prayers....then went 4 d animal show..ader birds yg bley play games....owang utan or as ariff puts it.."owang butan".....yg can kopek klape....n seal yg can do tricks......

d whole zoo kitorang track on foot n ariff on wheels... to finish in style *echeche*.....leypark naik train 4 a ride thru d zoo in a glance...

in short,l it was fun though tiring....kak uswah really loved i, ariff too n me 3!!!! lil' aufa was a darling despite d hot weather...die behave jer all thru...nie yg buat ummie cayang sesgt nie...

MamaNa....i saw that monkey yg u said ade bulu pjg till kaki..remember ???d one u saw mase outing tadika maria but mak never believed....siap amik gambo lagi..but it's not a monkey..owang utan ler babe!!!

if U happen to go to d zo in aussie there...amik gambo ngan kangaroo ek....nak tjk kat ariff....

5 -1 is not fun enuff....

last tuesday, labour day cuti i was a notty mummy since i left lil'aufa wif nenek n kak uswah n had some ME time being a big sista to my 3 adikS..since my other 1 adik is faraway now n she is already big enuff...hehe..my hubby n ariff?? umm...both balik slayang since ariff dah wendus samer wan n atuk kat sane...

having this ME time wif my adiks had been one of d things i'd been wanting to do dah lame sbenonye..but with d restraints of family life n what more wif anaks n hubby sometimes its not easy....

maybe my adikS terkezut when i ajak outing..dunno??m'be..yelah..tebiat kot kak ijah nie,??...mane nak letak anak kedak berdue tue??furthermore besanye MamaNa yg rajin outing2 wif them....tapi since she's away..n d MaMaNa-sick..*nie lbeh kreng cam homesick aahh* has set in really heavy...I'm trying to cheer things up n do some catching up wif my adikS....

sO we went outing...lee..ya..janie m me....plannye nak tgk spderman 3 or jgn tgk blkg ..but since tckt sold out...n since we crave 4 movie..we settled for "number 23" or as janie confidently put it.."Number 32"...hehe tak sedo salah tue....Janie aah yg promote crite ala2 thriller nie..so be it...janji tgk movie...klakarnye..all place sold out xcept summit n we went there....giler tak...sanggup tue...*ntah hulu maner ntah I pun x tau*

memang aahhh tak pernah sampai n while nearing the Summit...we saw this tall straight-office-like building ahead....bluntly n blurly I asked Lee "eh tue ke Summit??pesal cam office jer??" his slamber reply was " aah..tueler Summit...tpt wayang plg tue kat kl nie..memang wayang dia dlm office tp psl gian sgt nak tgk movie...takpe aahh dalam ofis pun kan.." wei!!is this 4 real??? - echoed thru my mine n Mama-Ya's similarly....tapi as we neared it baru aah nampak d shopping mall beneath it...kurengnyer PapaLee!!! bley plak wat lawak bOdo time2 nie...

d movie was just okay...a bit dissapointing in d end but quite intriguing as a whole...n as its name...we saw lots of no.23 there after..hehehe.....tak best kat summit we drove to OU...jenjalan n makan2..

eating at Pizza hut just to try out d new perfetto pastas...sedap jgk!!!..initially nak mamam kat chili's bak kate MamaYa.."to relive moments wif MamaNa"...but since d que pjg n dah lapo...len kali ahh kite kat chili's.....

d outing in all was fun for me..n i hope it was also for my 3 adikS..it might not be as fun as it would b wif MamaNa around...but i'll try doing it again n again.....as much as i can afford to..what wif d time n work constraints ahead....

but as fun as it was....as i put it above.....5-1 is not fun enuff...really wish ina was here too....baru best giler....

(MamaNa...rase x pizza n pasta tuh???? we ate on yer behalf.....hopefully u have fun outings there too...)

coming home to lil' aufa....i was all mixed feelings ...overjoyed to see him..n happy wif d fun outing ...thankful to Mamito n kak uswah 4 baby-sitting aufa n making Me n adikS time possible....but most of all sad n wendu...longing that MamaNa be here for more of such outings....

as for my 3 adikS ere....i know i may not b as fun-filled as MamaNa but i'll try my utmost ....

P/S: pic..kena tunggu courtesy of Janie n iya....hehe

eScapadE....

nearing the end of my 'working from home'..as Ina always put it *wink* ..i've been longing to escape somewhere..anywhere pun takpe....

cam tau2 jer.......abg suprised us wif a trip...though dekat jer...its a much welcomed escapade....excited tul ariff as we bertolak n his excitement echoed loudly thru the whole journey.......non-stop....

an hour's drive jer from home...but the site is much to long for..relaxing n x crowded since its not weekend...hehehe...

had a blast of lepaking+eating+site-seeing+more eating+brendam in pool n just lazing around....even lil' aufa njoyed sun-bathing while watching abg ariff beriya2 learning to swim...byk jgk tertelan air but his determination was WoW!!!....ade ler progress..

gotta bring them more often to d pools....sronoksss tul...Ummie can also float around..hehe...tapi rasernye byk 'sink' dari 'float'....almaklum dah smakin comel.....*yikes..*

our 2nd time here actually....Guoman, PD....hope to C more of it next time...

p/s: rugi aah MamaNa's far away..klu tak bley ajar ariff swimming lessons..kan...kan???

splish splosh....cOOl new place..

Hmm....it rains quite often nowadays...tau2 je downpour...so all plans made went dOwn d lOngkang..borings tul...!!!

was planning an outing to sUnway lagOOn last weekend...ariff all excited dah ....n me three!!hehehehe..tup2 weather x brape promising....sO it went down d drain..dUh!!!! bowing tul...dOwnpour memang ler nice on n off but whan it kacaus my plans yg tensIon tuh...

lamer dah tak gi brendam2...n ariFF really luv d waters...sO since x bley g splish splosh kat sunway...he did sO at seksyen 8 mini waterpark **ahaks!!* tak tau ke ade such palce??isyk!!!isyk!! sO ketinggalan ler U guYs nie..let me brief kan yek....it's a very nice n convenient place....entry f.o.c.......bawak baju mandi jer..klu malas bley jer bO wif birthday suit ( cam ariFF)..janji..mandi jer..nothing ELSE in d pOOl....n best of all..penat2 mandi..bley eat n drink easily ..just tuwun tangga n go to d cafe ( a.k.a dapuq )..hehehe...care to drOp by??kena buat appointment dulu..yelah..pOOl kena pour ayaq dulu n all..**hehehe*

rugi aaHHH MamaNa dah jauh...klu idak bley splish spolsh sesame ariFF...kan..kan..kan..aufa kecik lg..dier mandi ala2 spa kat his own kolam *wink*....siap massage n bubble bath lagi claSS!!

MamaNa kat sydney tue ader beach ehh..bley g swimming tak??? beach decent ker X-rated??hehehe..alamaks..lupe plaks..kang Mak bace..hehehhe..sOwy!!ter nOtty plaks..nie ler byk influence MamaNa nie..

nak splish splosh myself..ta dAaaa....

bUshes nO mOre........

I've been meaning 2 cut aRiff's overgrown bUsh above 4 quite sometime now...bukannye x de mase but we did bring him to a hair saloon ( chechewah..) tapi... to my dismay he refused to even sit..lagiler plak cutting his hair...hmmm....m'be bcoz he's so used to having his atuk yunus cut his hair.....x biase org lain meddle wif his overgrown n hard to manage mane....

laa....boring tul ariff nie...even tried coaxing him to have d haircut...but my attempts weren't successful..to put a stop to anymore 'pujuking'...ariff bluntly said..
" tak molah Ummie...tak mo potong rambut ayiep...kang nanti ayiep tak comey kan..kan..ummie.." hehe...dah ade atie nak comey2 plak...*smile*

his unmanageable hair is sooo ler merimaskan n invites confusion to is gender...dahler mate besar wif girlie lashes...rambut plak pjg n srabai...ppl kept thinking my ariff as arifah....though he is well dressed as an ariff...

putting an end to his bushy mane... had to ask his atuk yunus cut it...der....x bleyler fashionable lgsg...(dah tu..nak bwk proper hairdresser susah sgt,,)...let it be....
so now...ariff looks like ariff....no more arifah...

trying my skill as a hairdresser aufa falls victim to my gatal hands...yelah...aufa's hair plak cam rumput tumbuh tak 'skate' n not enuff baja...seciput here n there....since its not fashionable enuff...i decided to follow d much loved icon of ppl nowadys...yup!!! i 'mawi'kan si kecik aufa,...hehe...he looks better now n cuter...terror jgk ummie nie bab2 mendogolkan ...anybody care to be the next victim??? *wink*

gOOdbyE sUckSSss!!

tOday's d Day MamaNa's leaving 4 sYdney......d whole family including lil' aUfa yg baru nak baik demam tUwun antar.....her flight is at 2200 Hrs n after maghrib dOk mlepak killing time n MamaNa checking n re-checking again her things..thanx 2 abah's constant enquiries of where's where n what....

yes we're used to having MamaNa away b4..sOmetimes for months....but it's all within M'sia n she will always find her way back hOme somehow or another....THIS..however is as new an experience for her as it is 4 us the whole family....she's leaving us 4 a job abroad...going on her own..alone...there..outhere...amidst the kangaroos * hehe..best tue..!!!*

nOt only Us family turned up 4 her departure..MamaNa's Oil man was there...(abis kena sakat due to the plasTic envelope heheh).....,then there were MamaNa's pal..bOb, Intan n hubby.....sUprisingly..alOng also made an appearance..* cayaLah*..

aS we all sat there waiting...each with his n her thoughts....i'm quite positive that my other adikS...r thinkin' n pondering d same thoughts as I am...... " alamak...ni real2 nie..bukan memain...MamaNa's really leaving today...xde postpone2 dah...jauh plak tue...sydney babe..bukan bley naik keta g...kena fly......"...then as reality dawns on us all....sadness creeps in..." alah....sape nak sakat2 kite lagi, ...tak de dah lah org nak blanje n ajak jenjalan....tak ceria ahh umah tue....dgn sape I'll have fights nanti....no more alamanda..kopitiam...klcc..mid valley outings U guys....!!!!!!Mak....xdeler waiting up at nite for juicy stories from her..abah, no more staying up watching tv, tunggu MamaNa balik.....etc...lOts ..n lOts more....

with that all...tears started pooling n much to my dismay...it shed out a drop..then another,...then another...no stOpping now...worsening more on kissing n hugging MamaNa as we exchanged goodbyes....My tears only started more n more teary chains all over..( alah..yg lelain tue control macho jer sbenonye..memang nak nangis pun..tp salahkan owg plak!!ape klass.....)...

MamaNa shed tears as well though she vowed not to...n blamed it again on me...ahaks!!!

takpe Na...akak tau that beneath that strong exterior there is my lil' sista..no matter how big or married or far U r...u'll always b my lil' sista....d one I alaways played with, love to have fights with, d one i'll tell things I might not tell others..., the one who made me feel proud to be her sister always......

Na...jgn sedih2...b strong, jaga diri at ppl's place tue...do remember Allah always....n pls...try to do what i asked of U..again n again..ya....pls....

Windu2 kat aRiff n aUfa tue tetgk ah the pics ...

sending her off....the teary crowd....Me, iYa..jani..abah..mak..even kak uswah waved from afar...realizing that she's gOne now...only from sight ..but will 4 eva b near in our hearts.......

p/s: though aRiff might not understand it all yet..i bet he'll miss U like hell!!!

d reAsOn.....

i'm not much of a talker or even a blogger for that fact...then...y even start a blOg???....

my lil' sista is leaving for wOrk in sydney soon...she'll be there m'be a year or two...what i know is without any pending cutis to come home....*sigh!!*..knowing her...I know she will terribly miss Me..*ahaks!!!*..nOpe...my 2 lil' ones actually..her nephews....aRiff n aUfa.......

she has this charm with kids....from our youngsters days..she always have a way with kids & even adults...Yup!!she can b a sweet-talker...

Realizing that she might miss them terribly & miss watching them grow up....I finally decided to create a blog & promised to 'religiously' post entries in here for her to view...*Hmm...baiks tak akak nie??heheh*...this way...hopefully she won't miss out on her 2 belOved nephews journey in this world...

so MamaNa...u B gOOd out there okay...n do b nice if ev4 ( finally) mr Oil man pOps the question.....n then cOme sprinting back to the Big day okay..hehehhe...( U must be going ...*yikes!!akak sOunds like Mak now!!!*...it sometimes happen esp. when u r a mOm hehhehe....

thOugh my blOg entries won't be as chic like yers..I'll try my beSt to keep U up-dated.......take care ya!!!...aRiff n aUfa send kiSSes....

cheeky lil ariff

tOday I sent ariff off to nursery since abang had to attend a course ....went n stop at shell 1st for gas n ariff got himself dunkin donut 4 breakfast..hehehe....sronok btul dier..d journey was a pleasant one with ariff non-stop chattering on n on about 'abah's sheep'..talking me into bringing him to visit calvin ( d sheep's name)...I lied thru my teeth saying..' sheep tido pagi2 ni, ariff gi school dulu, balik kang kite tgk sheep..."* tipu sunat* ..all was well then n he munched satisfiedly on his huge donut till i took the turning near HUKM and him being sOO observant recognized the route...then all went into a mixture of ear-boggling orchestra of'.." Ummie..ayiep nak balik...tak nak g school....ayiep takut mirul tue lah Ummie...." not getting my attention enuff...it was accompanied with hand waving n kicking in his seat......that failing to deter me from sending him off...he switched techtiques....with a slow n heart-achingly 'sayu' voice he said...' Ummie...tak kesian ke kat ayiep?? tolonglah ummie...please....tak nak lah school, ayiep nak makan nasi ummie, ayiep lapar nie...pls ummie'... *also wat2 muke sedih siap cebik2 lagi*
glancing at his half eaten donut ...deep inside I crumbled...." ayiep makan nasi kat school lah yek..mane nak cari nasi kat cni...."...he bravely replied..." takde nasi aah..ummie..pls ah..ayiep nak kencing kat umah Ummie lah..."...with that last added words...I knew it...trick je sumer ni...auta tak nak g scool...'pandai anak Ummie ehh..'..
I marched him to the nursery n after much coaxing handed him off to d one n only "mak" he's attached to there...
driving away...terpk jugak..betul ke ariff really wanted nasi??yelah being hantu nasi lemak like abah die....dek kerna risau n kesian..called abang n related what happened...his reply left me smiling all d way home...abg kate.." alah ayang, besa ler ariff tu...hari2 abg antar die..line2 sayu tuler die ayatkan kite,...jgn risau....auta je tu....'....hehhehee...terkena jugak ler Ummie nie yer...pandai sungguh anak Ummie sorang nie...

OutbUrSt!!!!!

d whole gang ( abah,mak all my adikS excluding MamaYa ( xm's cm )) went out Coffee-ing at kOpitiam...sesaje since mamaNa's leaving sOOn .....as usual my 2 precious tagged along....one trying so hard to sleep while the other running around non-stop...chatting along, my eldest decided to test my temper...he'd been doing it all day today...with mum here tired n hungry....he succeded in getting a tarik t'ga...hmmmm..much to d suprise of mak abah,...n me too actually....
i was not this short tempered usually....dunno why lately i'm so easily piSSed off....m'be too tired n all....but coming to think of it....my eldest son is fishing 4 attention since he has a small bro now where all mummy's attention goes to..( not really...)...Hmmm....putting him to sleep I felt so sad n guilty..watching his little eyes close gently in that small cutey pie face..i'm all shattered at heart.....how could i be so short tempered now adays...
he's only trying to get my attention.....cian die.....gotta try my best to keep the cOOl though he's trying hard to break me....help me gOd....!!i pray that he understands that i still love him as much before....nothing will eva change....

lil' sis......

hiE aLL.....i'm nEw tO thiS blOggin'......bEEn watchin' & leArnin' b4 nOw....dared to jOin & share ........

mY lil' sista's leavin' 4 wOrk abroad sOOn...next week......had nOt tell anyOne even her..bUt i'm gOnna reallY miss her tOnnes....she's lOud...she's independant..she's kewl....she's rough at the edges but really kind & sOft at heart...she's all the things I wish I could bE....even though she's younger she is more masak in life than clueless me...

we came frOm an okay, not too poor or too rich ( just nice) family...5 of Us....she's my 2nd sista....the toughest & roughest oF sOrts...we shared a lot together...tears, laughter, fights, secrets....mOst of it sealed with promises & whispers of " jangan bagitau mak Eh...."...everytime & time again sHe never failed me.....
I might have been brIghter than her bUt she is mOre 'learned' in life than I will ever be...she matures in more ways than i could eva imagine......her presence is strong ( yup...partly coz she's lOud...mak's inheritence...*smile*) but her being around always manage to lighten & brighten up things no matter how dull they are.....
on odd occasions when she comes to me for a shoUlder to cry on...only at those times alone i felt really worthy......not to say i like her in misery...but then only would i feel i'm stronger & tougher than her...as an eldest child should be....*sigh*
some frens of mine slalu kate...'alah 2nd child memang lagu tu...ketegaq lebih, terror lebih all lebih..' m'be its true.....
anyhow..i know that i'm already missing her.....really hope she'll take good care out there & as mak slalu pesan...'don do things i don do ......'*ye ke??*

" lil' sis....U be good n jgn notty2......cepat2le cuti n blk cni.....".....*teary-eyed*